Carpet, detergent, brush and water
In her performance, Panfile makes her environment uncomfortable to feel helpless, exposed, weak and vulnerable, so in turn the audience can feel uncomfortable and unsure of what to do next. Many people feel uncomfortable when they see another person cleaning in public. They don’t know if they need to get out of the way or help in some way, especially when the person cleaning is on her hands and knees.
This performance also explores a more personal issue – loss of a loved one and how as a woman Natalia deals with loss. Everyone has a different experience when dealing with grief and the death of a loved one. She derived from her own grieving process, which was to occupy herself with cleaning or washing, as if to erase the person that is no more.
This performance was part of a series where she explored the personal, the public as well as the cultural aspects of loss. Coming from a culture where cleanliness is a big part of life, she wanted to explore how her own religion and culture and womanhood influenced the way she experienced and dealt with the loss of a pregnancy.